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    Ashlee, sometimes known as Johnnie. 21-year-old Missouri native following an insane dream in Florida. Vegetarian. Straight edge. Passion for websites, Internet, music, cats, hoodies, band tees, concerts, and hugs. Dislikes know-it-alls who are really know-nothings, disrespect, and idiots. Happily single. Cats are better than boyfriends, anyhow. Adopted by a cat. ...more?
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Overwhelmed

July 17th, 2008 @ 1:11pm | Permalink | Comments(0) »

It’s finally happened, I think. Johnnie is totally overwhelmed. To see where her time went, she kept track for a week…

I haven’t hardly done my project for Flash Fundamentals because Becks was finally online for a day to do MCRime. I could be charging $30/hr for this stuff but I’m not. I do this stuff because I like to do it, not because I want to fail a class. I have a quiz today and a practical tonight that I probably won’t do very well on, and my project is due at 7pm. I spent about 20-30 hours on MCRime last week alone. The effing layout looks fine in FireFox and Safari, but crappy in I.E. so I need to make some modifications. However, the site can’t launch until I have a few days with the domain name anyways.

Mikey Way and related projects have become a full-time job. Mikey Way alone I spent about 40 hours last week into Monday. It may be just a fansite or whatever, but that thing has become my life and I love it. I really love it, and I love to watch good things happen to it (which, if things are going to go in my favor, I’ll start making some money soon). Mikey Way includes the main WordPress site, gallery, and forum. 8 hours was spent on the Media site (which will be a separate site from Mikey Way and is a partnership with Brandi), and 30 minutes (if that) on Brandi’s banner.

I’m also an avid reader of LiveJournal, Guitar Angel, Jemjabella, and Green Day Authority. I can be caught trolling Buzznet, YouTube, the WordPress Codex (yeah, I’m a nerd), and Absolute Punk.

And how much time have I spent in school? On campus, last week, 40 hours. Maybe 4 hours outside of class. And it doesn’t totally count because I’ve been known to work on the above things while in lecture and lab, as well as obsessively checking email.

I haven’t been to bed before 6am all week. I haven’t had a full meal in awhile. I’m about to clean off my couch and do sporatic naps.

I need to get my stuff in line. X(

Oh, but at least Michael Curry realizes he doesn’t take responsibility for himself or the stuff he does. In fact, he was quite vocal about it. I give him props for that, dude. Not a lot of people can admit something like that in themselves.

On the bright side, I get to see Kathleen on sunday! :yay:

Tags: Buzznet, Internet, Kathleen, Mikey Way Online, Online Life, Real Life, School, Websites

Paradigms and Plato’s Cave

June 6th, 2008 @ 5:09pm | Permalink | Comments(0) »

Assignment: During our class discussions on paradigms, we talked about not realizing some paradigms are held until the paradigm has been challenged, if we even realize it then. In addition, we also examined seeing ourselves through a biased viewpoint and considered that our perception of reality may not always be the same as others’. This assignment allows you to demonstrate your level of understanding of paradigms and reality by applying thse concepts to a character in a movie.

In class, we watched “The Truman Show” starring Jim Carrey. We were to relate our lesson on paradigms to the movie to understand the concepts of Plato’s cave and paradigms. We were to discuss the parallels between Truman’s world and Plato’s allegory. We were to give our opinion on whether Truman’s cave helped him or held him back. We also were to give examples of caves in our personal lives or in society.

Things to know…
Paradigm: the frame of reference we use to view our lives; the things we’ve been taught, the things we know, our traditions and routines that make up our lives; stereotypes we use to categorize things in our brains so they make sense. (more)
Plato’s allegory: Plato’s Allegory of the Cave

In a way, Truman’s reality there was completely identical (literally) to Plato’s cave, with the actors and backdrops being his shadows and cave respectively.  It doesn’t (or does, depending on your point of view) help that the world he lived in was completely manufactured and was, in fact, a cave.  The captors as described in Plato’s theory would have been the television show creator and his team.  The objects the captors held would be the power of the team and creator.  The shadows, then, would be the actors that were around him at all times, the fake streets and buildings, the job he held, his wife, and everything he was interacting with on a regular basis.  Something I did find interesting was what was brought up at some point in the movie:  why did it take him so long to start questioning?  Christof said, “We accept the reality of the world with which we were presented.”  It’s not like he didn’t have the freedom to.  The difference was that he didn’t know he could question things. At least as when I was growing up, I had other influences around me that questioned things, from the bands I listen to and the teachers I’ve had and the friends I’ve been around, I’ve seen things be questioned and saw that one can question things.  In that world, Truman never saw anybody question anything, and didn’t feel the need to until that basic human instinct to learn kicked in and, when he was curious enough (after seeing his father), started to see things differently.

It’s an interesting question to try and answer, whether his cave helped him or held him back.  If it had been done for reasons other than the creator’s yearn for money and fame, such as actually wanting to protect this individual, that’s something else.  However, I believe that all humans instinctively want to learn or question.  What they learn about or question is to each his own.  Truman got to the point that he was noticing things, and wanted to learn more, and question them.  Even though he was in a “perfect” environment, there was that human urge to learn and question.  In a way, he was helped because he was protected from errs of this world; he was free of war and famine, unemployment and disease.  However, it held him back because he was insatiable in what he wanted to question and learn.  If Truman’s character had grown up in the real world, he would have done great things other than having been on a ridiculous television show, and in that respect he was held back.  Another point is that all those imperfections in the world, those are what shape each person, and those trials are what help to build character and form personalities. He could have ended up an entirely different person.

One cave I know I live in is my idea of a city.  I grew up in Kansas City, which isn’t necessarily a massive city but it’s pretty large.  I grew up in the part of town where I could play outside and not be afraid if my mom turned her back for half a second to take a sip of her iced tea from the porch.  I grew up with a single mother, my grandparents who lived a ten minute drive away, and my great grandmother that lived two blocks over, who’s house I could walk to without my mother following behind me at every step.  Because of this, I’ve done some stupid things in my life.  Some friends I’d met on the Internet drove to Camden, New Jersey, slept outside a venue, and got first place in line for a concert at the Tweeter Center who, around there, isn’t known for its safety.  However, where I grew up, I wasn’t really taught to question strangers and their intentions.  Luckily for me, the entire trip was one of the best times of my life, and I have no regrets, however I know it was stupid that I did it at all.

Also, in growing up in the Midwest, I didn’t travel a whole lot. I’d been to Chicago a couple of times, but mostly in and out of Kansas and Nebraska. I’ve been to Portland once.  I think that’s another reason I took the trip; I wanted to see things.  I wanted to see more than my mom’s backyard, the cramped studio apartment I was affording by myself by working a minimum wage job, the community college I started at and was too tired of my life to finish.

As far as society, one of the ‘caves’ people need to get out of is judging people based upon the stereotype.  I hate going to Wal-Mart and getting stalked by the security because I’m a young adult that wears black on black on black, stalked all the way out to my car, in fact.  I hate it that a young girl named Sophie Lancaster was beaten to death in front of her partner at a park in London because she was Goth.  I hate it that kids in Mexico that are seen as “emo” are attacked for walking down the street.  If people would quit judging by stereotype and get the blinders off their faces they could see they are hurting people, not just the local “emos” or “Goths”, but human beings that share the same hopes, dreams, and fears as they.

I hate it that a lot of adults don’t realize how many teenagers suffer from depression because, in their eyes, teenagers don’t feel things like that, and their lives aren’t bad enough for them to be suffering from something so serious, so that when 13-year-old Hannah Bond in the United Kingdom hangs herself, her parents and the media feel like they have to blame the so-called “suicide cult band” My Chemical Romance.  If people would bother looking past the stereotype they feel they need to label things in, then perhaps we could start seeing each other as people, as humans, instead of just other faces on the planet.

Tags: My Chemical Romance, School

Haha Web Design

June 3rd, 2008 @ 9:54pm | Permalink | Comments(0) »

The first class of Web Design was as easy as I predicted it was going to be. This is going to be an easy A. However, I think I’m going to definitely go all-out for this class and get some portfolio pieces going. For next class, I have to read some crap (see note to self) and find two sites I find inspirational as far as the design goes. I’d have to plug Guitar Angel and Nothing Less.

I was going to nominate Vexels.net but apparently they’ve closed! I feel ridiculous now because I gave that site to several instructors because of how awesome the site is with tons of people sharing their work and getting feedback and a huge list of tutorials. Apparently it closed due to the webmaster’s lack of interest. I understand, I really do, but it’s really insane that something that was supported by a good thousand or two people was shut down without notice. That’s ridiculous. As a webmaster, I understand the reasoning, just the lack of communication upsets me. I have more respect for my work and myself and, of all things, my visitors than to just leave them hanging like that. Oh, well. Life goes on.

So I guess I’m going to go curl up in bed with a yogurt cup and my web books and see how much reading I can get done tonight.

Tags: Internet, School

Note to self - reading assignment

June 3rd, 2008 @ 8:00pm | Permalink | Comments(0) »

“Head First” book pages 1-8, 25-27

Complete excersize on page 27 (use page 40 as a reference)

Pages 166-169 (image tag)

Pages 230-237 (standards compliance)

Tags: Note, School

I did it

May 28th, 2008 @ 3:40am | Permalink | Comments(0) »

Yup, I did.

I applied for one of the fanlistings I was on about earlier. Hopefully I’ll get it because, well, I’m done with the site. :/ Not to sound vain, but the layout I made is so pretty and so simple I could just eat it. No, really. It’s  a pale red/pink and green and it reminds me of candy, and it’s so cute I could eat it. Except that I’m sure Apple wouldn’t cover that in the warranty. “Customer eats computer”…? Not likely. XD

I was also surfing around the Adoptions board at TFL and came across someone adopting out a fanlisting that I had passed up quite some time ago. I applied. :sweat: The likelihood of me getting this fanlisting is pretty low, but I figured it was worth a shot. I feel kinda like an ice cube that got too close to the coffee pot…

There was an article that got posted on my school’s student site with stuff about hurricanes. It’s hurricane season and they were encouraging people to get survival kids (canned foods, lighters, candles, flashlights, batteries, the usual) and make sure vehicles stay filled with gas because there will be a shortage soon after a hurricane. I guess that’s the price I pay for going to school in Florida.  <3 The tornadoes don’t really scare me; I mean, they do, but I grew up with tornadoes and I know how to deal with tornadoes and I know what to do when there is a threat of one or if there is one upon me (which has happened) but hurricanes? Not a clue.

Right now, I’m totally into Nada Surf. They’re a lot calmer than the things I normally listen to (My Chemical Romance, Fall Out Boy, Green Day, Ramones, Taking Back Sunday, Mindless Self-Indulgence). I’ve been pretty obsessed with Popular, Always Love, and What’s Your Secret? and I can’t say that any of the other songs I’ve heard disappoint me. Popular also has one of the best music videos ever. And the girl that plays the lead cheerleader is a pretty good actress. Actually, most of the acting was right on.

Jenny’s still here haha. :clap: She’s chillin’, stealin’ my neighbor’s internet, because hers at her boarding house (or, well, that’s what it looks like anyhow) really sucks. She can’t even check her email there. Luckily I have neighbors that don’t realize they need to put a password on their wireless internet. Ya know, since I’m hooked up to a cable since my mom (or perhaps I) lost the installation disk to set up the wireless router I have here. XD

Taking Back Sunday is rockin’ my socks right now.

Tags: Fanlistings, Jenny, Music, Nada Surf, Scary, School, Taking Back Sunday

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